Weirdnesses of the day: Noticing ones own former company and certain persons promoted to certain positions, wondering whether anyone else has left in the meantime. And learning, being part of a small product developer, to be competed by Microsoft with an open-source project run as a managed service on Azure and it couldn't feel more confusing than that.
🔌Onward and in and out of calls, wondering where time went again. Flowcharts and organizational structures centered around technology. That kind of growth to observe in years not weeks. And the cleanup that gets more difficult with every step taken.
10pm and on and the sounds slowly calming. Infrastructure thrown away, reconsidered, set up again. Bits still not completely aligned. Meditating complexity and technical advances and being stuck mentally in a more comfortable past and wondering where to draw the line between what's meaningful and affordable and merely interesting to mess with. Indifferent to all this, constellations show up behind the neighbourhood roofs, there are stars on a sky devoid of dense clouds tonight and a shapeless late spring day is drifting into celestial void again. Have a quiet night wherever you are.
8am and on. Still trying to come up with a better question to make sense of the models answers. Still unsure. And once again feeling unsettling traces of mismatch between professional attitude and personal mindset. Breathing into the tea mug. And waiting for mental dust to settle.
4pm and on. Lost and found, found and lost again. Contenance on a slippery slope, way too much input, way too little capacity to cope with all of it. Also: Another shiny new service has been stripped of its crown and demystified sooner than expected but still it's here to stay now. More clouds. Many different kinds of.