Learning, all too often: The challenges of growing ambitious expectations in others - and suddenly being supposed to meet them. Limits tend to show up the very moment things get serious beyond that point of a possible return, as does the feeling of unease while throwing a lot of resources on certain issues. Past 3pm. Tuning mode. Slow steps on a foggy road.
Trennung zwischen privater und dienstlicher Technik, als ungewohnter Neuzustand. Die Breite der Spezialitäten, die Tiefe bräuchten, und das niedergetrampelte mentale Gras unter Kreisen, die man läuft, vor oder anstelle selbst trivialer Richtungsentscheidungen. Randbedingungen, Prioritäten, der Vorsprung der Anderen, eigene Grenzen. Fällt es mit den Jahren zunehmend schwer, Realitäten übereinanderzulegen und sich darin zu verorten?
Infrastructures. And breakage. Change many things at once to make things more interesting. Bonus points for breaking things all along lines that have been proven to be stable for ages. The known unknowns, the unknown unknowns and all the mess that is even worse.
Weirdnesses of the day: Noticing ones own former company and certain persons promoted to certain positions, wondering whether anyone else has left in the meantime. And learning, being part of a small product developer, to be competed by Microsoft with an open-source project run as a managed service on Azure and it couldn't feel more confusing than that.
🔌Onward and in and out of calls, wondering where time went again. Flowcharts and organizational structures centered around technology. That kind of growth to observe in years not weeks. And the cleanup that gets more difficult with every step taken.