8am and on. Mornings are, too, when one gets locked out of productive infrastructure all along the way without a well-defined procedure or means of getting back in. Feeling like sneaking around the perimeter for now, wondering whether parts of the fortification leave enough room to squeeze through without triggering every possible alert. So far, no luck.
4pm and on. Heavy breathing, listening to the city and ones own heartbeat. Life like inside a gift store crystal ball, with snowflakes dancing all around. Changing hats, clothes, roles, agenda. Moving on, cautiously, but trying not to slow down too much. All the afternoon.
Frühwintergrau, regennasse Beine, Architekturbilder und Zeitpläne im Kopf. Die Studenten gegenüber arbeiten wenig motiviert, hinter der Kreuzung entladen Möbelpacker eine Wohnzimmereinrichtung aus einem Umzugstransporter. Supermarkt des geringsten Misstrauens, neues Obst, anderes Personal, ungewohnt merkwürdige Stimmung, aber vielleicht fühlt man vorrangig das, was man mitbringt. (Auch: An der langen Schlange anstellen, warten und die Zeit im Leerlauf genießen, während der Geist unter der Musik aus den Ladenlautsprechern langsam weich wird. Irgendwann wünscht man sich ein schönes Wochenende, lässt die Türen hinter sich schließen und findet zurück dorthin, wo man eigentlich zu sein hat. Unten spielen die Kinder, Wind singt leise Melodien, die Woche flieht.)
9am and on and feeling slightly off temporal track, mentally already halfway through the day again. Loose ends in short timeframes, disjoint problem sets, different people and the experience of being challenged by not just switching topics too fast but also changing communication moods too often. More coffee. And more rain.
2pm and on. Wrestling words, purpose, meaning. Wrestling boundaries and separation. Too many different ends of ropes, too many pulling into different directions. The challenges of explaining complex issues to people who are supposed to explain them to people even further down the line. The model comes up with some answers but most of them are wrong and maybe the model itself is part of the whole problem.