Later again. Still, practising the art of disconnection, for the evening. And still struggling. Whirling thoughts, around many different fixed centers, somehow trying to stay clear of all of them to not be pulled away and taken in. The houses across the street are dark again, a few candles just behind a few windows and tip of a cigarette on a balcony, distant scent of its smoke but maybe just an imagination below starless clouds. Have a soft night wherever you are.
Much later, and again in that familiar place, position: Backdoor, ash tree, gazing out into the dark that keeps the meadows covered. Random noises hint for small creatures making their way through the bushes and into temporary attention. Somewhere up there behind the houses, cars are speeding down the bypass street, taking a sharp turn, roaring engines, to disappear heading for the highway. Insects circling that dim lamp, then and now hitting its surface. Across the road, windowblings are being shut. Getting ready for the night, retreated to the inside. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are.
Later again. Hands wet and shaky, debugging other machines and the intimidating reality of black boxes. Sceptically watching, while the backyards gradually give up on today and get ready for sleep, yawning again, yawning still. Imagining topics for celestial conversations, waiting for shooting stars and a waning moon and that's about enough before waking to a new dawn. Sleep tight once you're willing to, wherever you are.
Und dann Küchenabend mit anderem Schwung. Äpfel in einem großen Topf, Gläser mit frischem Sauerteig, eine Wespe irrt über Tomaten. Dinge, die sein sollen. Dinge, die sich ihre Zeit nehmen und plötzlich sind die Schatten lang und die Luft schmeckt schon wieder nach Dunkelheit und Nacht. Das Sinnliche des Hochsommers.
Almost 4pm again. Talking epsilon environments, floating objectives and hidden pareto efficiencies. Topics too huge and demanding to really embrace, by now. Resorting to routine tasks instead: Minutes taken, calendar pruned, window opened wide. There's music but unsure whether emitted by the outer world or some hidden tab and maybe that's not even relevant now.